Lizzie took a last slice of bread
and wandered down to the public beach, not the hotel’s exclusive patch of sand.
The path to the beach was built from weathered boards and lined with lazily
commercial stores full of shells painted to look like ferrets, and handbags
woven out of seagrass. They weren’t doing much business.
She rented an umbrella that came
with a flat sunbed and a chair, which she folded up to give her bed more room.
She had neighbors, but they carefully circled around her patch when going to
swim. Italians were very polite.
Dogs? Not so much.
The dog that trotted over to greet
her had the kind of hair that bristles in some places and lies down in others.
She was scruffy and ugly and very fond of licking.
She could have been homeless, a
wandering dog, given the way she gave so many kisses and wagged her small bony
behind. She put on a good display of ecstasy after being given a bite of
Lizzie’s jam toast.
“But homeless dogs,” Lizzie said to
her severely, “don’t wear velvet collars with the name Lulu embroidered on
them.”
Lulu flopped down and rolled over,
showing a scruffy stomach with sagging nipples that had seen better days.
“I’m not a dog person,” Lizzie told
her.
Lulu was too busy wagging her tail
in the sand to be insulted. Lizzie ended up scratching the dog’s belly, because
it seemed the polite thing to do. Later, when the sun moved, Lizzie dragged her
bed around to stay under the umbrella. Lulu wanted to be in the shade too, so
she crowded Lizzie over, and they went to sleep.
Like that. With Lulu’s back against
Lizzie’s stomach, the way that lovers sleep in films. Except that Lulu was
moonlighting and presumably belonged to someone else’s umbrella, and Lizzie
didn’t do lovers anymore.
Lulu snored, which was par for the
course. Lizzie’s previous lovers had always snored. She knew because she
couldn’t sleep with someone in her bed, so during those years when she had
entertained men, she generally didn’t sleep much. Or at all.
A hangover from foster care.
Not that Lizzie had had an
unpleasant experience in foster care, because she hadn’t. She was one of the
lucky ones, whose various foster mothers had cared about the job. But she had
learned quickly that one’s bed was never really one’s own, because at any
moment a fraught social worker might drive up in a battered car with three kids
in it who’d end up in “your” bed, while you moved to the couch.
It was so obvious that Lulu wasn’t
someone to worry about that even Lizzie’s absurd subconscious finally accepted
it.
An hour after she fell asleep, she
woke up with the panicky feeling that she had gotten behind on her meds. Could
she have? No. Sometimes just remembering that she had taken the pills helped.
Before her nap, she had washed one down with sparkling water.
There was a man sitting between her
umbrella and the sea, where the children usually played, reading. Lizzie sat
up, spilling Lulu onto the ground.
“Excuse me,” she said, not quietly.
“That’s my book.”
“That’s my dog,” he said, looking
up. He was as scruffy as Lulu, and his nose had a distinct bend, as if he’d
been in a fight. Dark hair tousled in a sandy, windy way. Facial hair. It was
short, but still a beard.
Lulu was licking his ear, so she
guessed he had a point.
“Romeo and Juliet, huh?”
Lizzie always woke up irritable,
even more so since she was on so many meds. Sleep dragged at her cheekbones and
made it impossible to smile. “Yeah,” she said flatly. Now he would either reel
off a verse or two, or confess that he never understood the Bard. Or that his
fourth grade teacher saved his life.
He quoted from Macbeth.
At least it wasn’t tomorrow and
tomorrow and the whole petty pace thing. Now that she didn’t have many
tomorrows left, she’d lost all patience for Macbeth’s whining response to his
wife’s suicide.
“Live you?” he asked, with a grin.
“Or are you aught that man may question?”
“Questions are out,” she said,
pulling her sunglasses back down over her eyes. “Do I look like a witch to
you?” Stupid question. “Don’t answer that,” she added. “Are you sitting on my
hat?”
“No.” He stopped staring at her and
looked around. “Is it a pointy black hat? Didn’t the Macbeth witches wear wild clothing?”
Lizzie was wearing her favorite new
bikini: white eyelet embroidered with yellow flowers and crochet trim. The
Queen of England might consider it wild, but no one else. He must be trying to
pick her up. He must be desperate.
She got herself to her feet. So
what if she’d paid twenty euros for the umbrella? She could give it up for the
pleasure of getting herself away from the amateur Shakespearean reading her
book.
She gave him a smile, one without
any joy. “I’m so sorry, but I’m going to my hotel now. May I have the play
back?”
“Where are you staying?”
Oh, great. This was like those
stories about countries where you were pestered to go stay in somebody’s
cousin’s hotel, and the only way they could identify you later was by your
fillings. “I’m not interested in meeting an Italian man, and I don’t need a
recommendation for a hotel,” she told him.
“I live in America most of the
year,” he said.
“America is a big place.”
“Do you live in New York?”
“Absolutely not.” It was a
lie.
Lulu pranced up to her, an orange
straw hat in her mouth. “Bad dog,” Lizzie said, but she couldn’t help laughing.
Lulu wagged her tail and danced backwards.
Lizzie dropped to her knees,
holding out her hand. “Please give me my hat.”
He intervened. “Lulu.”
Lulu looked at him sideways and
shook the hat.
“Lulu.”
She pranced over to Lizzie and
dropped it at her feet.
“Sweet dog,” Lizzie said, rubbing
her ears. “You’re a good dog, aren’t you?”
“Do you ever—”
Lizzie had found that honesty could
be devastatingly effective. “Please,” she said, standing up again and letting
the smile fall off her face. “I want to be alone.”
He stood up and handed over the
play, and didn’t even look sulky, which was a miracle. Or perhaps it meant that
he shambled around the beach all the time, getting turned down. He had to be in
his 40s, after all. He had nice muscular legs, but he was no youngster, like the
Italians strutting up and down in their miniature Speedos.
“You should go to Fabrizio’s for
lunch,” he said. “It’s the pink one, down that way. Just tell me one thing. Why
are you reading Romeo? Isn’t that
high school fare?”
“And college. I teach Shakespeare
in a university.”
“That’s even less of an answer. A
busman’s honeymoon.”
“What?”
“Haven’t you read Dorothy Sayers’
mysteries?”
Lizzie shook her head. Violence was
all very well couched in sixteenth century language, but otherwise—no. She
didn’t go anywhere near Grey’s novels, for example.
“A busman’s honeymoon is a phrase
from the 1940s referring to a man who drives a bus for honeymooners, so he’s
bored to death when it’s his turn. Why Romeo?”
Lizzie shrugged and tugged her hat
over her eyes. “I guess I like the smell of petrol and the squawking of
honeymooners.”
He nodded and snapped his fingers
at Lulu. They wandered off down the beach as Lizzie watched to make sure that
he went.
He had a nice ass. Worth watching.
He didn’t look back.
Fabrizio’s was painted the faint
pink color of the inside of a seashell. It was weather-beaten and old, and no
one from a yacht would consider eating there. The dining room smelled like salt
and tomato sauce, though the windows were open to sea air and screaming gulls.
A teenage waitress, sullen and
pierced, served her a dish of polenta with wild mushroom sauce. It was crispy
and savory, and came with a little pitcher of Elba wine, which looked milky
white and bubbled slightly, like flat champagne.
. . .
The next day, Lizzie rented an
umbrella sight of the seashore and the children’s jellyfish massacres. She paid
for a month, and then pulled out Romeo.
If Rohan turned the play into a
celebration of dudes, what would happen to the balcony scene? She got up to
fold away the extra chair and tilt the umbrella just so. Reluctantly, she
returned to the sunbed and opened the play again.
What was a Minnesota teenager like,
anyway? As opposed to one from the Bronx?
She put the book down and adjusted
her sunglasses. The two kids closest to her umbrella were building something
with rocks and sand. Their mother was sprawled in a seat, talking on her cell
phone. Her hair was streaked the color of…
The weathered seat of an outdoor
toilet.
That Norwegian goat cheese that smelled
terrible.
The cork top of her old desk.
Not bad. She was out of practice.
She used to do metaphor trios all the time, back when life was long, and she
was going to write a novel.
Not true.
She found it remarkably easy to be
honest to other people, which probably explained why she didn’t have a special
someone. That didn’t mean that she was honest with herself.
She had never really meant to write
a novel. She had planned to write a book about her childhood. A memoir, brisker
and funnier than Mommy Dearest, not
that she’d ever read it.
Some book that would be. Around
three pages, since she could scarcely remember her mother, and she had no
harrowing stories from foster care. Her water bottle was baking in the sun, and
it scattered sand all over her medicine bag when she picked it up.
She snapped the play open, skimmed
scene two. One problem was that there wasn’t anyone evil in Romeo & Juliet, ready to take out
Manhattan, a baddie like Voldemort. The three witches in Macbeth were theatrical gold, with the way they babbled about
killing swine and tormenting sailors. Even when they awkwardly circled a pot,
hand in hand.
How hokey was that? If only evil
could always be visible. You could fight it then. You could do something about
it. If only evil wore wild clothing, and spoke in rhymes.
The worst evil snuck up, like a
nasty compliment. It didn’t announce itself the way Voldemort did, with shining
signs filling the sky at night. You can’t pretend to be good when your face is
pasted on the back of someone else’s body. Or if your only friend is a big
snake.
Evil snuck into your blood at
night, hiding, showing up under a microscope.
Of course, death was everywhere in Romeo
and Juliet. The tomb was crammed with young dead people at the end. Death—
Lulu was on top of her, scrabbling
up and licking her ear before Lizzie knew what was happening. Lizzie shoved her
hard, and Lulu flopped backwards off the sunbed onto the sand, still wiggling,
and had to be scooped back up in a burst of regret after Lizzie took a quick
look around and confirmed that Lulu was on her own.
“I’m sorry,” she said, pulling
Lulu’s furry body back up next to hers. “I didn’t know it was you. I didn’t
mean to throw you off.”
Lulu lay down and panted. She was
too hot, the poor dog. She should be at home, in one of those deeply shadowed
Italian houses, built with walls so thick that heat never intruded. That man
should be giving a damn about her.
“If you were mine, we’d be in the
air conditioning right now,” Lizzie told her.
Lulu panted some more, and wagged
her tail. It wasn’t much of a tail. Some of the hair on one side was missing.
Lizzie picked it up for a closer look. “What happened to you, Lucy-Lu?” she
asked. “It looks as if a rabid cat munched on you for breakfast.” That wasn’t a
very good one. “Like a child came along and stripped your bark like a beech
tree.” The jellyfish killers must be getting to her. “Like…”
Of course, children were
cruel. Her foster mothers had been nice, but the kids at school always knew.
She would have had to relive middle school in order to write a memoir.
Embrace the suck, cancer
patients say to each other. The upside
of a her diagnosis? Not thinking about 8th grade, ever again.
They managed to stay relatively
cool for another hour. When Lulu panted hard, Lizzie poured water over her
head. She put Shakespeare to the side
and started reading a book about Georgian courtesans.
“I would have made a terrible
courtesan,” she told Lulu a while later. Lulu opened one eye. “I am very
hard-headed when it comes to money, and these women seem to live for the
moment. Plus…all those penises.”
Lulu looked bored.
So far the book hadn’t answered the
questions she’d wanted to ask. One had to suppose that a courtesan didn’t have
the right to get a headache, as it were. But her period? What about that? Maybe
men back in the 1800s were less squeamish than they are now.
She adjusted her hat so that it
cast an orange glow over the pages and spared a moment for her first boyfriend
Jake, who’d been fussy when it came to bodily fluids. Sweet, but fussy.
She was still thinking about Jake,
and whether it would be fair to blame her imperfect relationships on him
(answer: no), when a shadow fell over her legs.
Lulu’s owner brought a towel this
time and threw himself down at Lizzie’s feet as if they were old friends. Lulu
went into transports of ecstasy, leaping off the sunbed, wagging her whole
body.
“Ciao,” he said, twisting away from
Lulu’s mouthy kisses enough to speak.
He was looking at her and smiling,
so Lizzie said “Ciao” back. He was obviously not from the yachting contingent,
which was a point in his favor. His hair was black with silver streaks, but his
brows were still black. Most of the men in the hotel had hair that was
resolutely dark, no matter their age.
“How’s Romeo coming along?”
“Boring as a busman’s honeymoon,”
she confessed.
“Why are you reading it, then? I
can lend you a Terry Pratchett.”
He liked satirical British fantasy?
Another point in his favor.
“A friend of mine is directing a
film version of Romeo. I’ve never read it with an actual performance in
mind, let alone a movie.”
“Are they doing it in iambic
pentameter?” He looked vaguely alarmed. “I failed that test.”
“Your professor made you accent a
speech?” She only hammered on iambic pentameter if she disliked a class.
Mostly, her students were lovable. Mostly.
“No, it was scuola media. Middle school to you.” He shivered. “Interrogatione, otherwise known as
ritual humiliation. Stand up next to your desk and read Shakespeare in iambic
pentameter until you miss an accented syllable. We’d all been taking English
for years, but no one could understand a word we were reading.”
“Sounds tough.”
“When you messed up, Mr. Baldini
would hoot with laughter and make everyone clap for the dunce.”
“Brutal,” Lizzie said, impressed.
“My students think that I’m being mean if I call on them.”
“Americans like to complain. I have
a restaurant, so I see it all the time.”
“Aren’t they allowed to offer an
opinion about your cooking?” Lizzie asked, feeling defensive. It was sometimes
hard to defend her countrymen, but she always did it, even if she had to fib.
“They think I’m mean because I
won’t give them exactly what they want.”
“French fries? Hamburgers? What
kind of food—” She broke off because that was a stupid question.
“Italian,” he said, not taking
offense. “We love French fries; we just shape them differently. But I serve one
dish every night with no substitutions.”
Lizzie thought that over. “What
about vegetarians?”
“I do vegetarians, nut allergies,
and gluten. But I won’t do vegans, and I won’t make French fries on command.”
She thought about pointing out that
his restaurant would never thrive under those circs, but he likely didn’t care.
He was flat on the sand now, only
his head under the shade of the umbrella. He was wearing long swimming trunks
covered with poppies. Lulu jumped back up onto the sunbed. He had his eyes
closed, so Lizzie examined his body under the shade of her sunhat. It was a
beautiful brown color. For someone who had a beard—albeit clipped short—he wasn’t
very hairy.
“My name is Lizzie,” she said,
after a while.
“You’re going to love this, English
professor,” he said, sounding drowsy. “Dante.”
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